this is way overdue

ok...ARK card launch is over, my H3 test is a goner... and now I can finally catch up on my rest. Since this year started, I haven't had a proper rest. I feel really sad that I don't have time for myself... ... and this is spells TROUBLE. I seriously don't recall being so hectic while preparing for O levels... ... I feel so seriously unproductive these days, and it really affects my mood when I feel like I have achieved nothing. I have a backlog of stuff, and I hate it when I don't have the energy to do anything. I guess all the late nights from doing ARK has really taken a toll on me. (whoever heard of sleeping at 5am and waking up at 7am?!?!. My parents will kill me if they know about my sleeping pattern!)

I realised a lot of things from the Mazarin Project aka the ARK Cards. Sure, it may not be a success but nothing beats the experience and insights you gain from organising an $10 000 launch event. I feel that we were quite naive on certain matters, and we didn't handle some issues appropriately (like that JAPrintz matter). I just read the email from JAPrintz and I can feel that they are still upset with the team... ... But we made a mistake and we learn. We grow up. Many thanks to the ARK team for this experience of a lifetime. I have learnt many things from all of you. All of you are truly unique individuals and I can say ours is a dynamic team. We fight for our opinions to be heard, our ideas to be accepted. Vincent did not have an easy job, because everyone in our team is sometimes divided on our opinions regarding certain issues. And we are not afraid to voice out, and you can see our bu shuang-ness on our faces. Sorry Vincent. And many thanks to the rest, especially Elisse and Jin Zhi for that motivating factor. I always can count on Elisse when I feel so sian and I just need someone to grumble to. Thanks for the special friendship. Anyway, after the ARK Card launch, 07 people stayed back at the Open Plaza to talk again. The guys played some weird game where they had to drink bottles of NEWater if they lost. The girls+ a very sleepy Han Liang set down to talk again. Made one shocking discovery that day, and that was BZP and his Angeline. Lol.

Anyway, my H3 test is a mess. Why do I spend a week studying H3, and to end up having it this way? I spent a day studying both Econs and my H2 chem and I feel more prepared than my H3 (not to say I'll do well, just more prepared). Jin Zhi once told me the reason we're so afraid for our H3 was because it is an A level subject, and we are afriad of failures in our life. You didn't do well for your H3 but does that mean your life is ruined? That you can never enter University? I sort of think it makes sense, that all these is just a passing phase in our long long life. Like what Jonathan said, life will never be the same without ups and downs, shocks and expected, norms and uniques. But Singapore's system is such that it doesn't condone failures, and this is a sad fact of life I guess. I think I can never rest properly until I retire, and I'm already looking foward to that when I haven't even started working yet. How ironic is that.

Just finished reading a chick flick aka bimbo book. Sort of cheered me up a little. :)