i'm stressed

Argh. I'm physcially and mentally tired. Having 4 8.30am lessons a week, and reaching back home only at 10pm on Tuesdays and Fridays. Wed and Thurs not much better, reach home at around 7pm. Saturdays are burnt cos of WSC and tuition, and going all the way to Kallang for games and events planning is seriously a waste of my time. :( At this rate I'm going, I don't know how am I supposed to catch up with all my work and my readings...this sem has got to be one of my worst sem in NTU so far. Furthermore, the thought of an internship (and still NOT securing an internship for my compulsory professional attachment in June) really stresses me out.

I am an Individualistic Doer

I have just taken this online personality test thing on the Internet.http://www.ipersonic.com

Normally, I don't give a damn about such online quizes cause I think they are rather dumb, and based on groundless logic. However, some of my friends have tried it, and they said the stuff mentioned there are true, so I was intrigued and went to click on the link. And I must say, IT IS REALLY TRUE. As I was reading the analysis, I kept going "omg, it's really ME."

I am an Individualistic Doer. (Comments in brackets by me)

Individualistic Doers are self-assured and very independent people. They are quiet and realistic, very rational, extremely matter of fact people. They strongly cultivate their individualism and enjoy applying their abilities to new tasks. But they are also very spontaneous and impulsive persons who like to follow their sudden inspirations.(Very true! My impulsive decision to dye my hair, to have hair extensions cos it was free---only to take it out the next day :X, to sign up for the Kkb and Krabi trip etc) Individualistic Doers enjoy challenges - action and the odd kick are simply part of their life. They love tempting fate and many people of this type have risky hobbies such as skydiving or bungee jumping. (Erm ya, kind of true! I guess I like the adrenaline rush that comes with doing such stuff! On a side note, my parents have "sort of" promised that they will pay for my grad trip! :D But since the rest of Magnus are going to graduate one year later than me...and I don't really have much close friends in nbs, I don't know who I will go on a grad trip with. I don't mind travelling alone, but those places I really want to go- like Egypt, Costa Rica and Morocco, are too dangerous to travel alone for a girl. Not to mention, too expensive for a grad trip! And I don't wanna go to places like Hk/Taiwan/ Korea, where most of my nbs friends are foreseeably going to. I know I'm damn troublesome! Instead of going for a grad trip, I'm actually thinking of asking my parents to sponsor my diving lessons instead...around $600. Then, going to Tioman for diving will be my grad trip hahahaha)

Ok, and here's the part about relationships.

All Doers love their freedom, but if there were a prize for independence and autonomy, you would win it. You need your personal space more than all others, and if your partner sticks to you like Velcro, you quickly feel constrained in your independence and individuality, not to speak of the fact that a person like that could not hang on to you for good. (Yes, this is so true. I feel damn suffocated if someone keeps hanging on to me, keeps asking me out/when am I free/whatever nonsense, or bombard me on msn or sms asking "what am I doing now". GET A LIFE YOURSELF! I need a self- confident and independent person who can occupy himself on his own) For that reason, you should carefully pick a partner who can deal with being alone, and does not get nervous when he/she has to spend an evening or even an entire vacation by him/herself.

For you, a relationship is a nice and certainly a worthwhile addition to life. However, you don’t think your existence would be incomplete without one. (That's why I told my parents and even some of my friends when we're having heart-to-heart-talks: That I don't mind being single till I grow old. Sure, it might be a lonely existence, but I love my freedom and independence too much. I would rather just nua at home, watch my dramas, eat my grandma's cooking, swim and run whenever I feel like it and the spontaneity hits me-- you get my meaning. I don't mind it if the guy allows me to have my own space, and appreciates the fact that sometimes, I would rather spend my time alone than with him. But it's very hard to find another person who thinks the same way as I do. I run away when I feel he is getting way too clingy for my liking.Then it starts to get really annoying). Therefore, you are not in danger of jumping into an unrewarding relationship out of desperation; you’d rather wait until the right person crosses your path. Your freedom is always more important to you than a relationship where you would have to make too many compromises for your taste. (This summarizes my viewpoint on relationships. I know this sentence makes me seem like a selfish bitch who doesn't like to make any sacrifices lol. Erm, don't judge me)

This Chinese New Year is Ok, kind of quiet. I should NOT say it's a good break from school cause I have not being mugging for the past 1 week, although lessons have already started at 80% intensity. Time to start mugging tomorrow, before meeting M group for reunion dinner! :D

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I'm getting quite scared just by looking at this. 0.0 What have I gotten myself into!?!

1.1.2011

First post of the year! I had real difficulty waking up in the morning after 2 whole days of working (no, make that standing) at Popular bookfest. Luckily, my supervisor was really very nice to all of us, which further reinforces my opinion that male supervisors/bosses are better than female supervisors, who can be bitches sometimes. Came back, did some parts on Loreal, but finally scrapped it after talking to ks at night since all of us are doing it so half heartedly. Htht-ed with wb at night, and concluded that it's no point having any new year resolutions since I will be foresaking them a few months later. I just hope that my life in 2011 will be less dramatic. 2010 was quite an uneventful year for me. I was quite immature in the handling of some stuff resulting in awkwardness and "destroyed friendships".

Spent my day having tuition in the morning, then nuaing and slacking at home for the rest of the day watching ANTM. Schedule for the next few weeks are quite packed, with wsc song sign, my water rafting trip to kkb and my part time job at an ice cream store (yah I am desperately in need of money). I'm actually quite worried for the kkb trip as I signed up for it alone. Really wanted to experience water rafting and waterfall trekking before I get too old and afraid to try it out. Didn't think much of it at that time, but as the day comes nearer, I realised I don't even know anyone there lol! But I guess I have always done things on impulse, and I should really stop being so impulsive. Dyed my hair on impulse after 214 sucky test, bought a new phone on impulse, and the list goes on...Why do they say Virgos are cautious people?!? I'm so not a Virgo.

Note to self, I will pack my stuff on 3rd Jan :D And of course, meeting up with people before they fly off for exchange next sem. I guess I've accepted the fact that I will never get to go on an exchange programme during my University days. I do realise it's a huge financial burden on my parents part as they have to provide for 4 kids, and if they allow me to go on an exchange programme, I will be setting a precedent and they can't say NO if my sibilings were to demand for the same thing as well. Don't really want to apply for a bank loan as well as I don't want to be in huge debt when I graduate, along with the study loans and all. However, sometimes, it still sucks when you hear people planning for their exchange programmes and I'm stuck in Singapore.