Sorry to those people who I have irritated over the past few days...

I'm in a bad mood nowadays....so SORRY!

Elisse bought a purple water bottle for me. Looks like I'm drinking KMnO4 (Nice joke Benson!)

Note to self: I can choose to be happy! :)

depressed

I'm sad, and I don't know why.

Catching some emo-ing disease. Thought through a lot of stuff the past week. A bit depressed. Screamed a little after civics on Wed (triggered off by a super stupid thing. TC meeting shift from 3pm to 4pm). Guess I have too much pent-up emotions. And I realised I have difficulty communicating with my parents, I think 60% of the time we talk, we will fight. Actually it's sometimes my fault, but I really can't see eye to eye with them sometimes. Had 2 major fights with them this year liao, and it is only the start of the year. AHH! Sad life.

Lectures going at a lightning speed, and tutorials sometimes I also quite blur. And with teachers constantly talking about THE A LEVELS. I feel that I don't look forward to school anymore. Sigh...and Carol was a person who loved going to school and came to school with a happy heart. (At least for the past few years)!

Talked a lot to Jinzhi and Elisse on Friday after Mazarin. I realised I must try to bond more with some people. Jinzhi, I shall follow you sit next time. Yah, and Vincent, will talk to you directly next time. Must admit you are a very understanding CG rep. And that webquest thing I realise I also very unresonable and selfish lah. Just feeling depressed over the past week and I think that webquest stuff (although super insignificant) sort of trigger off my irritated-ness. My fault k. Sorry. I can see from your point of view after jz explain to me. Woah not bad- inclusive CG rep. :)

Yah, and Zhi Peng is a very reponsible leader sia! Sent me sms today to remind me to do econs project. And apparently Mon got meeting and discussion for econs. Damm efficient! Not bad Zhi Peng!

And I think someone in my class is super pissed off with me now. And I think XXX will remain bu shuang with me for the whole of this year. :(

Merry XMAS!

I went to Christmas Party at my Grandma's house yesterday. Didn't get to meet up with the rest of 07 cause mine ended late, and parents say don't go liao. -.- Anyway, I stuffed myself yesterday. There's KFC, Pizza Hut, Golden Pillow (where outside is the bread and insde is the curry chicken), some weird salad thing, mango and durian cake and ICE CREAM! Apparently, 07 people also had KFC and Pizza Hut. LOL!!! Anyway, didn't really enjoy myself yesterday, cause I'm not very close with my cousins. This cousin of mine was like bragging how she got transferred to Temasek Sec using her wonderful Sec 1 results. (She's in Sec 1 this year) Apprently, she just wrote to the principal herself, called for an interview, and she just got transferred like that. Talk about initiative. Anyway, she repeated this for like so many times that my sis was rolling her eyes. Wahaha! And recently, my uncle transferred job from IT sector to teach in Loyang Sec. And that cousin was giving him advice on how to teach properly. Was so irritated in the end that I want to go to party at vincent's house, but parents continued to talk. ARGH!

Anyway, talk about presents. I didn't receive and cups, towels, photoframes, candles and candle holder this year! Which is a good sign. Every year, I used to receive candles and photoframes from my cousins. Don't know why they changed this year. :)

And thanks to my friends who wished me a merry christmas! :) Sm suggested new year party on 1 Jan in Vincent's house. Haha!

Can we just spilt up GP? Everyone do according to their register number can! I can't seem to start on that irritating GP :/

Isn't this discrimination

Okay! I just read a commentary on TIME magazine about mixed marriages. It said that there is no big deal marrying someone of a completely different generation, and 4% of all marriages are now interracial. Not even your grandparents will get lathered up if you marry someone of another colour. However, there is one mixed marriage that will always draw stares- that is: marrying outside your looks. Quote "Marrying a few degrees up or down the hotness scale". And it said that guys who marry a woman who is a few rungs up in the looks ladder are often perceived as cool and rich. (Note: Donald and Melanie Trump). However, women who marry up is said to be deluded and desperate! Isn't this a form of discrimination?!? The writer also said that these marriages are often very challenging and stressful as many people will feel that the marriage is "mismatched".

Well, just some food for thought here.

Back!

OK! I'm back to blog, since jon says he wants to slap me for not blogging. AGAIN. But there's nothing interesting to blog about seriously. To continue where I left off on my last post, Stardust is a blast! It's really really nice and it's one of the best movies I have watched in my 17 years (Lord of The Rings is also fabulous =D ) I just watched The Golden Compass last Saturday with my family. I can't say it was nice. I'm really disapointed since the book was like WOW!

My internship at KKH is over! I didn't get paid, but it's really just an experience for me. But I should be lucky that my internship lasted for one week. I was so tired everyday after I reached home. I'm also curious to know why since I just stood around the whole day. I had several mentors for each "department" I went to. (10 to be exact) 9 of them were nice. 1 of them is evil. I shall not talk about her in my blog in case I get sued by KKH. People who want to know just come and ask me. =DD And I witnessed quite a lot of "digusting" things during my internship, such as mammography, fluoroscopy and ultrasound. I shall not go into the details since it will freak you out. (I told Elisse and she is definitely freaked out. Think I spoilt her appetite for lunch somehow). But after my internship, I realised Singaporeans are not that conservative after all, especially the women in the 50s. They dare to do something which I never will comtemplate doing. Shall not elaborate.

Anyway, I probably won't be spending Christmas with my 07 friends. Got family and relatives Christmas party too. I guess I can rush over from that party to Vincent's house? ARGH.

Post Chalet Syndrome

Back to the flow of blogging. I shall NOT blog about the chalet because practically everyone in the class has blogged about that already. Just want to say that the chalet was really fun…and INSIGHTFUL?? Some people in the class made a video of our class, with photos of class outings and birthdays and whatnot for the past 11 months. Sad to say, I wasn’t really emotional when viewing the video, because I was simply too tired. But after that video ended and people like Jinzhi, Jason, Karina, Vincent and Jonathan started to make speeches, then I really started to think a lot. Someone said: “People think our class is bonded, but that’s on the surface only. I really hope everyone can talk to anyone in 07 about their problems and stuff.” Sad to say, that is very unlikely to happen to me. BUT I will try. So far, 07 is the only class that made me feel comfortable in my whole 17 years. Primary school was a traumatic experience for me because it was really very very competitive in class. And no one cares about you when you’re like languishing in the bottom of the class (read: ME). I even had a horrible teacher who enjoys making people cry. Secondary School: Too many cliques in the class. Lot’s of scary people in my class. Even girls can be super scary also ok! I didn’t really fit in with my class and I was never comfortable, but at least I have a few close friends who I can really talk to there. Sad to say, none of my close secondary school friends are in TJ, with the exception of Elisse Yulian. You rock girl! =DD But at least in 07, I managed to find friends that I can talk to. Sure, we haven’t reached the stage where we can talk about everything and anything under the sun. But I’ll try to make the friendship work. We have 10 more months to go, and I hope that in the days to come, we can forge strong friendships that can withstand the test of time. 2 years. It’s really a short time. I still remember the day when I step into the college and saw 23 other strangers from different schools. 1 year has past, and very soon, we will all be going our separate ways. 07! We must really appreciate the time we have next year!

“We were strangers, starting out on a journey. Never dreaming, what we have to go through. But here we are, I’m suddenly standing, at the beginning with you… "

Lastly, I want to say: TJ030 rocks! I know all the other group leaders have dedicated posts on their blogs for their members, but I won’t because it just feels weird to me. Hope you will like the card. I just want to say: The past 8 months have been great working with you people. Although we get angry with each other sometimes, and you all are afraid of me sometimes, I really feel closer to all of you after the entire PW project. You are really great to work with, and I can’t imagine any other people being part of TJ030. Elisse, Zhi Lin, Angeline and Jason: A great big “THANK YOU” from me. TJ030 will always have a special place in my heart. =DD

Yeah! I'm finally going to watch Stardust on Monday. Zhi Lin says she is broke after watching that crap Bee Movie. Looking forward to emo-ing in the cinema myself. :)

Sick

Feeling sick for the past few days. Ever since Thursay's dinner at Marche. Ahh! Marche was a disappointment for me...I expected really GOOD food, because everyone who been there seems to give really rave reviews. But like what Siewmin said, we don't know how to order. Like Zhi Lin and I sat so close to each other yet we ordered the same thing?!?! Must really ask Siewmin to teach us next time.

I ordered some potato rosti thing, which was basically some potato strips with sausage. Quite nice on the first few bites, but the taste soon became very sick to me. After a few more bites, i really cannot stand that thing anymore, so Evil Zhi Lin and I decided to order some fruit crepe, which was NICE! We were so proud that we managed to order something nice! =) After eating the fruit crepe, I continued eating my digusting rosti, cause CANNOT WASTE FOOD. (PS: Apparently, Ina likes that rosti thing :) After eating that, I had a weird sensation in my stomach and I felt like vomiting. But JInzhi says "Don't keep on thinking of vomiting and you won't vomit." So I controlled it until I reached home. Then I started puking non-stop for 1 hour. Was feeling so weak that I just wash my face and I went to sleep.

Friday woke up: stomach discomfort again. Went to see doctor and apparently I ate something wrong. Saturday was unproductive but fun Econs meeting, managed to see so many friendster profiles courtesy of Vincent and Jonathan (Realised Jon is paranoid lol!) Saturday afternoon, my stomach began to feel unwell again. Took panadol and slept. Sunday woke up: Stomach unwell again. As I am typing now, I still feel so sick. Something funny happened today. I saw a book on the table, with its glaring title "How to treat common ailments at home". I flipped to the first page and I saw "Stomach Discomfort". Then it listed all the symptoms that I have, and then gave a list of causes such as "Viral infection" and "Stomach infection". Yikes. I really hope I don't have some infection. =(

I don't even know if I can go to class chalet tomorrow. Hmph! Was so looking forward to it, but in my current state, it's hard for me to get excited. Sorry 07 people. I really hope I'll get well by tomorrow and worst come to worst, I'll drag myself there. =)